I've lost 18.4 lbs now, no longer overweight. Almost at my halfway point.
Wedding related I sent off an e-mail to find out what our best man has to do to be able to marry us. Not much else to put since money is still exactly the same. Paying off debt, setting stuff aside and hoping for the best.
Stepped on the scale today and was told by my wii that I am no longer overweight. I am so excited to be "normal" that I celebrated by cleaning the house in booty shorts and a tank top. I'm not where I want to be but damn this feels good! I'll admit, that thinspo quote, as anorexic as it may be, "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels" rings true!
Now to hold back on that dress. I really want to be much smaller before I buy the dress because this is not the size I want to be when I walk down the aisle. 18.4 lbs gone :)
As I see myself shrinking into a more desirable shape I can't help but dream about that perfect dress. I have begun to narrow in on some affordable and gorgeous dresses. While doing that I will see what stores in Halifax sell that dress. Although most stores have several of the dresses it would appear Winchesters have all the dresses. Alas, I believe it is unanimous that I shall be making my purchase at Winchesters! Although, I am open to trying the other stores to see how their service is.
I am really worried about not getting people booked in time. Looking at the budget, punching in the numbers and thinking that this is going to work. I have to book the venue in April then get married over a year later. Sure I can do it. I found the perfect song for the bridal party to walk down the aisle to so I've been having luck with the musical side of things.
I have a coupon for a free pearl necklace if I throw a jewelry party. I am curious if any of my friends are actually interested in something like that. But there are a lot of useful coupons from the other night as well. So still totally worth it both mentally, emotionally and financially.
As for productivity? I sent off the wedding planning e-mails, updated a wedding registry with bed bath and beyond, researched wedding venue options and now I'm going to wedding pla--...bed.
The bridal showcase was positively amazing, all the information you could possibly want was right there in front of you. Questions to be asked, cards to be taken and everyone wanted to know when your special day was. It was amazing and I wish there were more every year. ;) Right now I'm still in the early stages of planning so I needed information on everything but in a few months I'll be looking at Cakes, or flowers and I think it'd be more beneficial to have those showcases then. But today I had loads of fun entering my name in draws and gathering bagfuls of information. I had at the ready two of my bridesmaids both also running around in all the excitement filling their bags with so many pamphlets and ideas.
The girls (flower and ring girls) were having almost as much fun as us adult girls. By the end of it they were completely played out! As much fun as they had I think we could have tackled the event even better were they left home with the best man and/or groom-to-be. Next year I believe I will ensure they have someone to watch them and that I have even more bridesmaids there. SO MUCH FUN!
I think the moment that hit me the most was when we were sitting there at the fashion show and the men started coming down the runway to Putting on the Ritz doing their best Fred Astaire impressions although they were marching to Taco's version of the song.
There I was surrounded by some of my best friends, my two favorite little girls and these men all dressed up in their best duds dancing down the aisle like goofballs just as David would and tears welled up. I tried to hide behind my hair. Such a silly bridal tear moment but it just hit me. Everything in my life, every trial and tribulation, every stumble, every fall, it was all leading to this moment when I would be surrounded by my best friends, people who want only the best for me as I plan my wedding with my best friend.
In the end the day was a huge success. I gathered massive amounts of information which I quickly sorted into careful piles that covered my living room floor. We had piles such as, jewelry, fashion, dress, tux, transportation, honeymoon, coupons, business cards, etc. and then they were sorted into my wedding planning book. I have not filtered through them yet simply sorted them into their categories. However, tonight I am armed with post-its and paper to dive right into my book of wedding bliss.
I think this book will help get through those days where I am feeling inspired but can not afford the inspiration until next paycheque. Those days when all I can do is browse through options and write down information and ideas. This book is now my wedding bible and I shall know it verse by verse.
So while the beast slumbers I have been dedicating precious minutes to planning out the wedding ceremony and reception and searching for venues. Never have those naps meant so much to me. Sure it's easier to do regular chores when she's asleep than when she's awake but planning a wedding just can't be done when she's awake. For one thing I feel incredibly guilty if I'm not teaching her something or playing with her in some way. This girl is my life and I can't put her aside for wedding planning, no matter how perfect it needs to be.
I have managed to find one possible location that is pretty much attached to the hill where we want to have our photographs taken so it's really not that bad a deal. In addition I will be attending the local bridal showcase in a few days. I'm so excited to be going and glad I looked when I did. I would have otherwise missed out on it.
Tired of not doing any active wedding planning I jumped into the book David had been given as a christmas present. While flipping through I came across a Maggie Sottero dress I positively loved! A nice tea length dress. I wonder if it's within my budget? It wasn't the dress that David's co-workers thought he'd look great in though. I hate this waiting game. I don't want to start looking for a dress until I am the right weight. I wish I was the right weight now! 16.8 lbs down a little less than 30 lbs to go. I'll get there in time. Saving money while I work on it.
Another .9 of a lb gone today. Down 16.8 lbs. Every time it drops I squeal, I'm glad it's happening so fast!
If only money for the wedding would come in as fast as the pounds are going out.
Being studious pays off. I should have more nightmares. Almost a full lb lost today. I'm down 15.9 lbs now. Might have to start trying dresses on. Not ready to buy one yet though, I want to be much smaller!
Well, the nightmares have apparently begun! After having lost 15.1 lbs and being thrilled by this I had a nightmare last night where I stepped up on the Wii Fit and had gained 10lbs! That positively terrified me and upon waking I was very studious all day!
I will never be that big again! I am not even near my goal weight yet but having lost 15 lbs I feel like I'm so close. Although knowing there are 30 more lbs to go is a little tiring to think about. It's like you can not just be happy to have lost 15 lbs you instead just see each bite of your food as delaying the 30 more lbs you want to be gone.
However, I have been losing weight every second day so I am convinced it won't be long now!
Down 15.1 lbs now! That is so exciting. What's not so exciting is how tired I am today! Goodness I wish children came with a "mommy is hung over" button! Be quiet world!
My wii asked me if I was feeling refreshed this morning and I wanted to kick it's ironic ass!!
I'm getting so close to my goal weight. I'm still scared to be excited. I don't like how I look yet but it's an improvement none-the-less.
I am more than a little terrified to start looking at flower prices. I know that will be horrendously expensive. I keep convincing myself that because Gerbera Daisies are in season in July and that I am not having roses that I will be saving myself a bundle. But the budget in me screams, "You're going to spend how much on something that is already dead, won't last that long and will not be saved forever?" It's like spending hundreds of dollars on a make-over. Pretty for the pictures but only lasts one day. I want my flowers to be picture perfect but not at a huge cost.
Now whenever I am at my local grocer I seem to always be pricing their flowers and looking for gerbera's in my color. If I were brave enough I would simply go grocery shopping the day or two before the wedding, grab up a bunch of gerbera daisies and make my bouquets. Problem with that of course is the risk that they wouldn't have enough or the right colors or both.
What to do, what to do!
On a more positive note, I have now surpassed the 10 lbs lost mark and am headed colorfully towards the 15 lbs lost. Sitting nicely at 14 lbs lost. Almost halfway there!
